So wow,
So far so good at this blog thing...not.  But I have an excuse - visitors.  My sister-in-law came for a holiday with her kids and we had an amazing time.  I am lucky that I get along with my in-laws - my sister-in-law is one of the best things that happened to me and I'm so thankful that she's in my life.  We laugh SO HARD together...my gut always hurts after being with her.
We did a lot of stuff - day trips, swimming mostly.  After one day trip and no naps for my kids, I realized how important my "me" time is to me.  If I don't get it, I am not myself.  It thoroughly exhausts me especially if I've been up in the night with the baby.  I'm a pretty flexible person but when it comes to my kids' schedules, I'm a drill sergeant.  It makes a world of difference when they're kept on a schedule.  Take heed new moms!  Anyway, my neice and nephew (8 & 11) were AMAZING with their little cousins (2.5 & 6 months).  We actually called them the day after they left and thanked them for being so great.
Today is back to normal - me alone with both kids while hubby works.  We went to the grocery store this morning and my little guy was so so good.  He always asks to walk and if I have a ton of time, I let him but if I have to get stuff done, I tell him he can walk later.  So when we get to the cash, I get him down from the cart and I give him each thing in the cart individually so he can put it on the conveyor belt.  I've had many other customers seem impatient with this but I just think "too f'in bad - my son is being taught the importance he has in the family and that he is capable"  and if he was left in the cart, just because I didn't want to piss off anyone, he might've been cranky and wouldn't that be the same thing?  I have learned so much becoming a mom which I never thought would happen for me.  I am not the perfect mom - far from it - but I try to do my best which I think all of us do as parents.  I yell sometimes, I lose it, but I forgive myself, apologize to my kids for it and move on.  You have to.  And I learn from it - what brought me to that point?  Could I avoid it?  That does help.
What also helps is talking to my family - my sister-in-law, best friend, mom, aunts and they've all said the same thing - they've been there.  It comforts me to know that.  And really, I have the best little guy in the world so I'd like to think that maybe, just maybe, that has something to do with us.
So there you have it, I've babbled long enough and maybe as I go my posts will get more organized and not so all over the place but really, I'm just putting my thoughts out there.
Chow for now...have cinnamon loaf in the oven and can't wait to eat it!
:) KL